ugh :/

why is it that whenever i get a really close friend, they end up changing on me? and make it seem like its my fault? i dont get how something so small can take control over someone. i mean, clean up your act for the sake of you and those around you. youre not gonna get pity anymore. im done. no one cares about that, why cant you JUST accept it? no one is asking you to change or anything. just to stop with the moping around. its not like you. and i miss the happy, cheerful you. i know im like down the majority of the time but thats just me, and its always been how i am since forever. but you? come on! its not you! no need to say everything sucks and all that jaz. living life to its fullest is hard. its easier for you, trust me. ive already had my fair share in life, its your turn now. so just go back to your normal happy self... and quit taking it out on us.