that song by shinedown brings me up but down at the same time. seems like it was just a week ago... i complain too much about it, i just cant help it. so here i am lost inside my thoughts. but what can i say, im just way too complicated that way. why did he choose me to begin with? knowing the way i am most would want to avoid dealing with my complicatedness and stubbornness. but i guess he really doesnt mind. and made a way of proving that.. man life can suck sometimes. i just feel so...so...empty :/. but like the song says "sometimes goodbye is a second chance".
Sunday, February 28, 2010
Thursday, February 11, 2010
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
life sucks sometimes.
Hmm lets make a lovely list about the crap im going through...
1) getting things i dont want: i am always getting things i dont ask for. not like "oh jessie! i got you a car!" no, not good things like that, i mean like giving me problems, telling me things i dont care about, send me pictures of things i do not ask for, being asked personal questions by you people.
im human, well im considered as one and sometimes i just need inner peace and need time to think alone. i dont always need opinions or need to express mine. im a typicall quiet persona, love it or hate it.
2) anger pointed towards me: i have no goddamn idea whats going on but one of my so called "friends" is mad at me for making her "friend" act all weird just because i didnt like him as more than a friend. i mean, we have only talked twice, on the phone. i dont see how she could choose two people like that, i mean they love on different ends of the US. how effing lame is that? wooow... i could go on about that.
3) getting crap rubbed in my face: ok, so i attempted to actually be part of something. fifteen people, only fourteen available slots.i thought i had a good chance but diring my interview, well i froze. i choked. i ate it. every phrase you could use to describe the phrase failure...
*i will continue this later...*
Friday, September 11, 2009
ugh :/
why is it that whenever i get a really close friend, they end up changing on me? and make it seem like its my fault? i dont get how something so small can take control over someone. i mean, clean up your act for the sake of you and those around you. youre not gonna get pity anymore. im done. no one cares about that, why cant you JUST accept it? no one is asking you to change or anything. just to stop with the moping around. its not like you. and i miss the happy, cheerful you. i know im like down the majority of the time but thats just me, and its always been how i am since forever. but you? come on! its not you! no need to say everything sucks and all that jaz. living life to its fullest is hard. its easier for you, trust me. ive already had my fair share in life, its your turn now. so just go back to your normal happy self... and quit taking it out on us.
Sunday, August 30, 2009
Sane
Two months, and im going crazy!! :'[.
I really really really miss youu <3
You keep me sane.
Ive been in a state of nothing these past few weeks,
:/.
I love you!
Sunday, August 9, 2009
Schedule
1- Algebra 2- Crouch- D204
2- World History- Holloway- D101
3- PE 10- Hook- S109
4- Guitar- Rogers- B07
got a scheduel change since some members have a servere case of stupidity.
Thursday, July 23, 2009
Sidewalk Chalk- I Love You.
How did it all start? Funny question. It all started with sidewalk chalk. You know, the questions you ask eachother and all that stuff. Something so little turned out to be so much. Start little to immense is just pure amazing in my world. I like how the evidence is still on my driveway XD.
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